It’s one thing to align yourself to your environment. It’s another to align your environment to you.

There are a lot of people out there that just accept and try to alter and change themselves to fit into a place where they don’t completely fit. It would be silly to think of someone who is a claustrophobic to find a career cave diving.

I like my job. I enjoy being around my coworkers and some of my regulars. This job, while ticking off a number of boxes that align with myself, there are so many boxes that are left unchecked. Sometimes it feels like I am trying to fit a square peg into a circle hole. Or perhaps it’s like I’m trying to make the hole bigger to try to force the peg to go in when it’s not meant to.

I feel like my job is just a series of days where all I really do is react. React to customers, react to orders – to emails, to complaints, to phone calls, to questions. I ping-pong around to hundreds of different tasks every day that require my attention. It is very rare to be consistently working on the same project for extended periods of time. Is this a localized event at just this job? Is this retail in general? Or am I just complaining again about how hard it is to find something that resonates with me?

I’m excited about my future after October ’25. I’ll be living back in my home state with my best friends. I also plan on stepping down from my position at work from a managerial role to part-time. I want to invest more time into myself. Call it self-discovery, call it chasing a dream, call it whatever, I am very excited at what awaits me in just a few short months.